Day Twenty One! - 30 Day Challenge

How you hope your future will be like

The not too distant future I hope to be working, doing something I enjoy/am interested in, living on my own in a lovely high rise apartment building on the 12th floor or so in Whitby or Ajax or Pickering. Probably still not knowing how to drive and hence not having a car lol.

In the distant future I see myself living in my solar powered house, with wonderful sustainable and environmentally sound elements like bamboo flooring, the use of recycled glass, rain collectors, and things of that sort. I will be married, can't see children right now...who knows, they may just be in their rooms lol. I will be driving and I will own a car. A cute one, like a Mini Coop or a Beetle lol.

In the super distant future, I see myself on a porch swing, rocking back and forth with my husband. Still looking good for my age, healthy, watching my grandchildren (so I guess the children were in their rooms lol), having a cute puppy, a fluffly one, we would have had a chocolate or black lab already, still enjoying my property.

That's what I see, what about you? Where do you see yourself in the future?


The Empress

Day Twenty! - 30 Day Challenge

Your fears

*inhales deeply....sigh*
Do I have to? Okay, so one fear is being alone (forever). I feel like I have so much love inside of me that I can't keep. I must share it. To be alone (forever) would be devastating. I've been told by somebody that it's impossible for me to be alone. I hope that's true, but with that I also want to say I hope that I'm not unhappy and not alone......because I think I would choose being alone instead of being unhappy.


What do you fear? Do let me know

Day Nineteen! - 30 Day Challenge

Five things you lust after

This is going to be very interesting lol, but here we go! Five things I lust after:

• strong, healthy teeth (yes I just said it, teeth)
• a great and beautiful shoe closet
• financial comfort....i.e. MONEY. No comments on that lol
• a stable, healthy relatiionship with amazing sex
• a car? hahaha 

In my my mind I don't really lust after things, but these are the 5 things I could come up with.

What are five things you lust after?

The Weeknd - High For This

Maybe I just jumped on the bandwagon....but I like The Weeknd. This is one of his songs that I enjoy.

Day Eighteen! - 30 Day Challenge

A problem that you've had

This problem thankful has not be acting up as much as before, so I'm really grateful for that. I have had an issue with my right wrist. Apparently fluid from my joint collected outside of the joint and added some pressure to my wrist, making it a tad bit uncomfortable but not unbearable to move it. There was a visible depression in my wrist. My doctor, specialist guy, suggested having surgery to remove the fluid, but I opted not to. I would have had a tiny scar, barely noticable, but I still decided not to. As I said earlier, it hasn't been acting up in a while so no worries there.

Want to share a problem you've been having?

The Empress

Day Seventeen! - 30 Day Challenge

Something you're proud of

This is a tough question to answer. What am I proud of?? After much contemplation and accessing my emotion I think I am going to say that I am proud of my friend Ashni Ramsammy. I know Ashni is a someone not something, but I couldn't think of a thing.

Ashni has been such an inspiration to me in the past few months. This young lady has grown and is continuing to grow and blossom into a fine young lady who is driven, self motivated, decisive, approachable and professional. Ashni knows what she wants in life and she is making strides to get it! Nothing is going to get in her way. If something attempts to she will find a way through it, over it, under it or around it. I am proud of her because of the growth I have seen in her. When I met she was a wonderful young lady but still a fragile flower bud. But throughout the course of our friendship I have watched her grow (and I think I'm allowed to say help her grow as well) into who she is today. Another reason why I am so proud of her is that she has now become such a strong person of character that she can be a rock when I need her. The energy and synergy between the two of us is amazing!

All in all - I am proud of my friend for having a dream and working to make it her reality!


What's something (or someone) you're proud of??

Day Sixteen! - 30 Day Challenge

Something you always think "what if" about


If you know me well enough you should know the answer to this...what if I pursued my dream of being a performer on stage.

If you know me and not even well enough, but if you've seen me on stage you can tell that I love it! I love being on stage whether it be performing or hosting, I was born to be on stage! Sadly the culture back home is not one that heavily promotes The Arts as a livelihood and hence my dreams of being a performer, being an artist, were not supported as much as being an environmentalist. I've never considered myself the best dancer out there. Truth be told in my ballet classes I always thought of myself as the worst of the best. The best because I made it so far, but still in comparison to the other lovely ladies I danced with, I always thought I was the worst. The thing I know I have is stage presence and energy. Many persons have told me that I'm a natural born performer and when on stage it's hard to take your eyes off me. Oh well.

This summer I met someone who is living my dream. He works as a dancer. Gets paid and pays his bill from dancing...and I'm not talking go go dancer, I'm talking legit performer. Meeting him has given me hope that I can persue some sort of my dream of being on stage. I think I'm going to looking to being a part of a musical or something. I'm not the best singer out there, I don't think I'm the worst (I'm not tone deaf), but maybe I can give it a shot and see what will happen. Who knows, my what if may become an I did.


What is a "what if" that's been on your mind for some time?

Day Fifteen! - 30 Day Challenge

What is your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it suits your personality

I am a Cancer and YES! I think my sign suits me very well. I follow @ZodiacFacts on Twitter and there are quite a number of things about Cancers that I have to retweet or nod and say YES!! How did you know?! lol. I am a Cancer and I Love It!!


What about you? What's your zodiac sign and do you think it suits your personality?

Relationships

Disclaimer: I am no expert...heck I don't even have legit experience lol. I'm just talking (well typing what's on my mind). If anything doesn't seem to flow, I apologize. I'm a bit of a scatter brain at times.

I came across this website Facts About Boys and found some of the things I looked at a bit interesting. My good friend Ashni posted on her blog (Struggles of the Strong) asking why do guys start getting into a girl and then plap just stop calling and the Facts gave some good indicators to know when a guy has rejected you (I find rejected such a harsh word, but that may be because it happened to me lol). I found it quite humourous actually, that the first indicator of you've been rejected is "he stops calling you/returning or replying to your messages." Okay. Wow. Ouch. Slap in the face much? Yea, it is. I don't get why people aren't open and honest. What if I'm a bit slow and suffer from Delayed Reaction Syndrome and hence pick up on these things a bit later than other people?!? Why can't you just say hey I've got what I wanted, I'm out. Or conversely, I'm just not that into you anymore.

Sometimes I think it's easy for me to say that because I'm a lot tougher (at least in my mind) than a lot of other girls who can't handle the harsh, point blank truth. I don't really like people watering down things or buttering it up. Sometimes the cold hard truth is best. So maybe there's some guy out there who's reading this shaking his head saying these women don't know what they want. It's not that we don't know what we want, it's just that we're all different lol. How does a guy know which woman can handle to point blank truth, and which one can't? Sigh. I guess you pay attention and see how tough they are. But that entails actually paying full attention to them, getting to know them, and that still might lead to pity for getting so far along and then ploop, dropping them. Relationships are complicated. And some people are snakes.


Well that's all the blabbering I'll be doing today. What are your thoughts on my randomness (if it makes any sense at all :S I need to work on that for real). How do you decipher who to be frank with and who needs to have tricks and pointers thrown at them?


The Empress

Day Fourteen! - 30 Day Challenge

What you wore today


Well, I didn't have to go to work today so for the majority of the day, once I got out of bed I just has on a wrap, tied around my neck and secured with a belt. Later on in the day I had to shoot a video so I wore an army green fitted cargo pants, grey V neck shirt, denim waistcoat (dressed with some badges). I was going for a kinda military look.

Day Thirteen! - 30 Day Challenge

Your opinion on your body and how comfortable you are with it

I have my issues with my body but generally speaking, I adore my body. The stretch marks, moles, hairs, birthmark, curves and lack there of. I love myself and my body. Surely there are things that I wish I could have changed, or I wish were different (well not really) but still, I've grown to appreciate the vessel I've been given and because of that I understand that there are things I don't like but I don't let it control me. If it's something I can change for example - get more toned - I change it. Go to the gym, etc. If it's something that will either require a lot of work or money or cannot change, I just leave it alone. If anyone doesn't like anything about me....BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! You thought I'd care? Ummmm no! It's mine. My body and if you don't like something don't look at me! lol. I think the obsession with being perfect instead of being natural is ridiculous. I love me (8) just the way I am!!!!! (8) And you should too ;-)

The Empress

Day Twelve! - 30 Day Challenge

Five guys whom you find attractive

In no particular order:

Idris Elba

Marlon Palmer - follow him on Twitter @ThatDudeMCFLY. He's so funny and real! Fabulous guy!

Vybz Kartel

BAHAHAH!!!! Kiddingggggggggggg!

Al Green...he's got one of those baby faces

Dwyane Wade (yes I know a bunch of people who are mad right now lol, but oh well!! I think he's attractive. What can I say?!)

Last and by no means least (he's so delicious!! I wished so badly to see him as a guest judge when I went to see So You Think You Can Dance Canada...but alas he wasn't *sad face*)

Nico Archambault - Season One Winner of So You Think You Can Dance Canada!!

So, give me 5 men/women you find attractive

Day Eleven! - 30 Day Challenge

Your family


What about them? I love my biological family. And the other families I have been adopted into are awesome as well. That's about it lol.


Your family...what would your answer be?

The Empress

Day Ten! - 30 Day Challenge

Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play

• The Weeknd - Wicked Games
• John Legned and Brandy - Quickly
• Adele - Take It All
• India Arie - The One
• The Cranberries - Linger
• Notch - Nuttin A Gwan So
• Sedale - Nah Stop Whinning
• Ricky T - OK There
• Gwen Stefani - Harajuku Girls
• India Arie - Ready for Love

What ten tracks came up on your music player?

Day Nine! - 30 Day Challenge

How important you think education is

Wow! Do I have enough time or energy to talk about this? Way to tired for it, but I've gotta answer the question!!

Okay. So I'm assuming that the writer of this list was thinking along the lines of traditional education. I  think traditional education is important because it helps you attain success within our society. The limitations that traditional education has is the biggest problem with it. I think education should be free and not so bloody expensive! Something that will take supposedly take persons from poverty to not even riches but comfort is very restricted. I also think that when getting an education, do what you're interested is and you will go far, but that doesn't mean that whatever you do, even if you're not into it can't be useful at some time.

All in all (and I do apologize for the crappy post), I think education is important, and if you have the opportunity to get an education in something, take it. You never know when you may be able to use it.

How important is education to you? And how did you perceive this question?

Day Eight! - 30 Day Challenge

What you ate today


In order

• two chocolate truffles (yes...I had chocolate for breakfast)
• cesaer salad (no I'm not trying to make up for the chocolate I ate...I was just really hungry and wanted something substantial)
• chewy oat and chocolate Fiber One bar
• chocolate-raspberry tea (in case you didn't know, yes I am addicted to chocolate)
• Quaker Cheddar Crispy Minis
• pretzels
• 7 Up
• rice, salad and stewed chicken

Yes, I know....*hangs head in shame* What I eat is terrible!! Where's the calcium?! Where's the dairy? =( I'm going to work on that

What did you eat today? Do share!

The Empress

Day Seven! - 30 Day Challenge

Five pet peeves 

Oh boy...what to choose. Some of these I've spoken about but hey, I'll mention them again!

In no particular order of hatred, 5 of my pet peeves:

• Guys with their pants half way down their thighs. See I don't mind part of your boxers showing...BUT THE WHOLE THINGS?!?! Really? sigh. Moving on
• Dirty bathrooms. Just..just disgusting. If you're using the toilet, flush. Don't get it on the seat, or the floor! Oh gosh...moving on!
• You're on the bus or in a building and someone is having a conversation via text/bbm/whatever on their cell phone and they have a ringtone/sound for when they get a message. The phone is in their hand and it's still making a sound...CONTINUALLY!! Every two second ding ding ding dong. ding ding ding dong. ding ding ding dong. PUT IT ON SILENT!! ARGGG!!! That's a big one. My phone is 95% of the time set to Phone Calls Only - it rings only when it's a call. And trust me when I tell you noone calls me. Sigh. I just. Can't. Hate it.
• People who refuse to be open minded...Case in point - a number of international students tell you international students are not rich. You still don't listen and keep say nah nah they're rich because they're paying $17 000 a year for tuition..................Do you know what a student loan or a double mortaged house or land is?! LISTEN TO WHAT THE INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS ARE TELLING YOU ABOUT WHAT THEY HAVE TO DO TO GET AN EDUCATION!!!!! Sigh. That's just one example. I'm not even going to talk about more.
• This one's pretty simple - having wet socks. I hate wearing sneakers/runners/whatever you call them and my socks get wet because it was raining heavily or I stepped in a puddle. Wet socks are not fun times.

Those are five of my pet peeves. Do you share the same ones I do?? What are five of your pet peeves? Leave a comment below!!

The Empress

Day Six! - 30 Day Challenge

Your views on mainstream music

Sigh. This is going to be a difficult one. As with everything in life, there is good and there is bad. I think the majority of mainstream music is a bunch of crap. By mainstream I mean what's played ont he radio, because in my mind there is rock mainstream if you listen to a rock station or you're a fan of rock, etc for each genre out there. But if you turn on a "regular" radio station I think the majority of the music is crappy.

Music once had a message of truth, a story of love, a movement for action. Now music just says do stupidness. There is a good bit of music that should be "mainstream" or rather should get more publicity, more airtime but is not, for whatever reason. There are so many artists that have a good, positive message that can uplift society, but instead the radio constantly pays shake your ass, in the club hooking up, thug life, and the works.

My views on mainstream music is that there are a few needles made of gold hidden within the piles a rotting hay. What are your views on mainstream music? Feel free to share! If you're leaving a comment with an anonymous profile, feel free to leave a name or initials or something.

The Empress

Day Five! - 30 Day Challenge

Things you want to say to an ex


I'm sure you might be expecting some long winded you missed out on a  great thing blah blah blah kinds shpeel. There is just one thing I want to tell all my exes and that is

THANK YOU!

Realistically all my past relationships have shaped me to become the woman I am right now, and I love me as I am. Current relationships will continue to shape me into hopefully a better person for the times ahead. But I won't dwell on what didn't work out and what I was bad at or what you were bad at. It doesn't matter when I think about it.

To make a side note: on Twitter there was a #TT (trending topic) which was #MessagesToMyEx and some of the things people were saying...HOLLAYY!!! One girl tweeted thanks for Chlamydia...what's wrong with these kids?? I know I've tweeted some things I shouldn't have but whoa...sigh. Anyways, some other people tweeted some good things, others clearly were bitter and needed some closure or therapy or sumn. But who am I to say such. Anyways, I digress.

If you had a chance to tell an ex something, what would you say? Please do share.

The Empress

Day Four! - 30 Day Challenge

Bullet your day

• Wake up, bathe
• Eat breakfast
• Go to church
• Come back home
• Eat lunch
• Sit, talk, laugh
• Watch movies
• Sleep...

That's about it lol

Day Three! - 30 Day Challenge

A book you love


I don't read much, although I am trying to break that habit. Anyways I digress. One of the best books I have read surprisingly was a text for a course of mine. The name of the book is "The Words That Come Before All Else." If you get a chance to read it, do so, and if you do, do it with an open mind and heart. The book is more or less the shortened version of the Creation Story of the Haudenosaunee Peoples. I really enjoyed that class and the book helps me to remember what was taught in the class.

Happy Reading!

The Empress

Day Two! - 30 Day Challenge

Something you feel strongly about


I'm not very emotional about anything right now, or rather nothing comes to mind, although I know if someone starts to talk to me about some pertinent issue I'll get riled up.

I think I'm going to settle on the education system in Saint Lucia, or to narrow it down and relate it to me I will look at teaching and me. I taught for two years before coming to university and I honestly loved it. Many days I wished I didn't stop but everything happens for a reason right? The power I had as a teacher was amazing and I don't think I abused it. The passion I had as a teacher surpasses any passion I have while in class becoming an environmentalist. It really makes me wonder whether being an environmentalist is my second passion or third. I won't answer that because I think I know the answer. Anyways. I was an untrained teacher when I began, fresh out of community college and a sweet 19 among 16 and 17 year olds. Even though I was fairly young I found a way to command respect from my students and I even commanded it from my peers as well.

I loved teaching because I felt like I was making a valuable contribution to my country. I felt like I was responsible for shaping an portion of an entire generation of people and even though I lasted only two years, I hope that the minor changes I began are carried by all my students throughout their life. The power of a good teacher is amazing. Teachers inspire and mold so many young people. I strongly believe that if you're not strong enough to bare it, leave it, regardless of whether you've been in it for years. One of the best compliments I have ever received in my life is not about my dancing, or getting a 90% on a lab of mine. It's hearing a trained colleague of mine say you were one of the best teachers this school has ever had. It means so much to me to know that not only do my students see that I tried very hard to make them the best I could make them be, but my peers also noticed my hard work as well. Again I say I love teaching. Maybe I will go back when I graduate. Find a way to do it. Who knows. We will see.

Teachers shape the world. Much respect to all the hard working and passionate teachers out there. If you're a teacher and you're not passionate about what you do, trust my untrained ass when I say get out. Don't stay and frustrate yourself or mess up a generation of potential.


What do you feel strongly about? Please do share!

Day One! - 30 Day Challenge

Five ways to win my heart (in no specific order)

• FOOD!!!! Being able to cook is a plus, but being willing to learn how to cook and make mistakes while cooking and trying new things is a super plus!
• Having a genuine interest in The Arts: music, dance, film, theatre, poetry/spoken word, visual art, is there such a thing as tangible art? If so, tangible art!
• Having a great sense of humour...goodness knows this girl right hurrr loves to laugh
• Being trustworthy. If I can trust you to do something important for me continually and not to do what I would want, but to do something that I would enjoy or appreciate, that's big
• Being down-to-earth but not bare basic cheap. I mean you don't have to buy cereal for $30 if you can get a good one for $10 likewise we don't have to go to dinner and spend $400 when we can have a picnic on the beach that came up to $30. But with that being said, we can still go to a nice restaurant or show every so often and have a good time.

What are five ways to win your heart? Share them with me in the comments below =) Maybe you have something I didn't think of. This challenge thing is hard you know lollol.

The Empress

Frank Ocean

I know some people must being saying Oh Lord this girl late you know! She now talking about Ocean. Cha man! True, I may be late but that doesn't mean I can't!

In case you were like me and never saw a pic of him, this is what he looks like. I won't lie, for some odd reason I thought the guy was Caucasian! I have noooo idea why. Anyway, Frank Ocean is this guy who is making waves with his delicious music. Frank Ocean, legally known as Christopher Breaux, is a 24 year old song writer from Louisiana. I love his music. It's somehow very comforting to me. Thus far my favourite songs from him are: Nature Feels, Swim Good, If I'm In Love, There Will Be Tears and Novacane.

If you haven't, I would suggest giving him a listen. You can always start by listening to my favs hahaha.


Do you love Frank Ocean? Lemme know! Drop a line in the comments below and let me know which songs you adore! Happy listening kids!

The Empress

The 30 Day Challenge

CLEARLY! I have nothing else to do, so I looked up 30 day challenge and decided to do one of the many possible 30 day challenges out there. The one I have decided to do is from http://30daychallengearchive.tumblr.com/ 

Feel free to go through the tumblr account and find a 30 day challenge you want to do!

Thought

" Life isn't that serious...Laugh a little"

Cheers To A Wonderful Weekend

I just felt the need to do a post saying THANK YOU to my amazing dance buddy Sugaray Robinson who organized a trip for us to come down to Toronto to attend The Beatdown Dance Competition. I haven't seen any of these friends since their convocation, or my birthday in June (or in Dev's case well before that I think). It was just so amazingly refreshing to reunite with them and have an awesome time telling stories, jokes, enjoying good food and amazing dancing!

I missed you guys!! And I am glad to know that time apart did not and will not equate to friendships lost. So this morning I raise my glass to you and say Cheers To A Wonderful Weekend!!