Restlessness

I long to be a good student, not even a great one...just a good one. But quit often I fall short of my dream and am an okay student, with much potential but seems distracted. You would think after my schpeel about wanting to go to grad school and do my masters I would automatically buck up or settle down, whichever way works for you, and get my work done. No. I still am exceptionally restless and unfocused to give the tasks ahead my all. I don't think I suffer from any attention deficit disorder of any kind. It's just that I can't motivate and mobilize myself to focus. It's odd. It's like the moment I decide to get ready and do work, all the molecules in my body decide to have a dance party and then I can't get that energy to be centered in my brain to concentrate. I become fidgety and am constantly touching something, or fixing something, or thinking something. Okay...that was my ramble to divert myself from doing my work. But I must get something done. I am a good student. Okay is not okay for me ;-)