The Truth

Windows to my soul

I let you peep through

and dive into

the sea hovered by storms

of various emotions

swishing and swirling

from hurricane to calm

in a split second.

You wanted to see

You wanted to experience

You wanted to solve

the mystery

that lies

behind my eyes.

Cross Cultures, Cross Boundaries

Music is the language of all. I have no idea what this song is saying, I just know I love the feeling it gives me when I listen to it. I hope you can enjoy it as much as I do...and maybe somebody can tell me what it's about hahaha.

Sometimes Love Just Isn't Enough

Sometimes love just isn't enough
to calm the nerves of my heart.

I am being unreasonable by wanting your full attention once we converse?

Sometimes love just isn't enough
to soothe the anxiety in my mind.

My preference is no extras although I'm the extra...and I know I will be told otherwise but I don't care. I know what is in my mind.

Sometimes love just isn't enough
to rid this feeling of loneliness creeping on me, making me realise that no matter how much love we have you will never be mine.

And even though I dream and dream, day in and day out, hallucinate and pray, it will never be so. I will never be that face you see every morning when you awake. I will never be that body holding you tight in the middle of the night. It will never be my spirit that is taken to higher heights in the middle of the night. It will never be me and I'm just going to have to live with that. Going to have to live with that reality.

Sometimes love isn't enough to change reality.

John Mayer - Daughters

This is a lovely song. I can't call myself a John Mayer fan, but I can say that I do enjoy the songs I have heard from him. This one is one of those that have stuck with me.

Enjoy =)

A Day of Love

Who would have thought I would do a Valentine's Day post...certainly not me. But I woke up this morning, opened the door and walked into the kitchen to see this

and I smiled. She reminded of what Valentine's Day really is about - appreciating those who are close and dear to you. This simple gesture really put a pep in my step today. And although I missed two buses and was chilly while waiting for the bus I still had a little smile on my face because I knew that I was loved and appreciated by someone.

I never have a valentine and I've grown to be fine with that. When I was younger I really wanted to have one. I really wanted someone to give me flowers and chocolates or just some sort of a something, but as I've gotten older it really doesn't matter to me anymore. If I were in a relationship I'm not sure I would expect anything on Valentine's Day because the "love" or whatever appreciation we had for each other would be felt every day not just on one specific day.

To those of you who celebrate it "Happy Valentine's Day"

To those of you who celebrate V-day's twin sister "Happy Singles Awareness Day"

Where Are You Going?!

I sit at my desk and feel a little sad and worried. It's almost mid-February! Where has this semester gone? Where has this school gone? Time really has no breaks.

My attitude towards my school work is fairly passive right now and I'm not sure how to kick myself in the butt and shift to a more active role. This is really bothering me. I had such a wonderful semester last year, and I was so proud of myself. Then this semester, I'm back to the same old shit (pardon my French) as before. I need to devise a better, more consistent system for this. This school thing...sometimes I do wonder if it's for me, but at this point I have no choice but to suck it up and complete it.

I can do this. I will do this. And it will be done well.

Plus One to Vocab

Today's word is depauperate.

The word depauperate is an adjective and means poorly or imperfectly developed.

No one wants to live a depauperate life. Let us then strive for excellence and enjoyment. After all, it is just one we get.

United We Stand

There are times when I think about my university experience and I am saddened that it will be over soon. And then there are times when I think about it and I am glad I don't have much time left here.

Racism in any form shape or fashion is not okay. It's terrifying knowing that you're a student millions of miles away from home with no one to turn to in the event of something horrendous happening. It's terrifying, although not surprising when you see the great lengths that are taken to ensure oppression still exists and is being practiced. We say slavery ended but has it really? What is a "coloured" person suppose to do when in a predominantly white society/community and the persons who are suppose to be there to keep you safe are racist towards your race? So many questions run through my mind about what can be done, what should be done, how things should really be.

It's not okay to sit on a bus regardless of your race and say nothing when drunk white people start chanting "White Power." It's not okay when you're in the bar and someone passes by and recites a racial slur. It's not okay to say nothing. United we stand and if we all band together, putting race aside, and say this is not acceptable regardless of whether it's done to a black person, a white person, an Asian person, an Indigenous person.

Racism is never okay. Stand up to racism today.

Motivation

I went to class today and found out that I had two options in regards to this mandatory course for my degree: take the half credit course and drop a whole credit course that I have been doing for one semester, or drop the mandatory course and do it next academic year and find another course to do.

Feeling a bit discouraged and frustrated I walked out of the classroom and went to catch the bus. I decided that this minor set back was not going to stop me and my going pretty good academic year. I can't register for a number of courses online because I don't meet the 10.0 credit requirement (I have 9.0...and yes I know I'm behind) and still not even that is going to stop me. By the hook or the crook I AM going to do those two other courses I want to do this semester. One of those courses is a fourth year course and the other is a third year course. I'm telling you people, I AM GETTING IN! There's no stopping me. This is my goal, my mission, my have to have thing and I am going to get it.

Let this be inspiration and/or motivation for you to not complain or feel sad about things not working out and instead changing the plan and getting back up on the saddle. Nothing is impossible if we work hard for it. We can and we shall.

Have a great day!

Simple Conversations

I love my friends, the persons that I know I can call up, text up, tweet up, Facebook up, instant message up and have a conversation with.

I think the friends I love speaking to are those from "developing countries." Business majors, IDS majors, Environmental Science/Studies majors having a conversation aboutt heir hopes and dreams is so much more fulfilling any day than listening to what Chris Brown did or Stookie on whatever show she's on (is her name even Stookie? Snookie? That just shows you). Conversations with such people stimulate me, they stimulate my mind, the make me feel like I have a responsibility to myself, to my country, to my ancestors to become something, to make a difference.

I tweeted this recently and I really love it.

I don't want to be famous. I want to be an inspiration.

The reason why I love this tweet is because being famous, well known, followed, stalked doesn't do anything for me. The attention I get from that doesn't make the world a better place. It's just another obsession persons have. But to be inspirational, even to one person means I'm making a difference. I am doing something good. I am making somebody stop and think yes I'm on the right path, or this is what I need to be doing, this is how I need to be living.

"I don't want to be famous. I want to be an inspiration"